Remember That I Love You

by Kimya Dawson

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1.
Tire Swing 03:08
Tire Swing I took the Polaroid down in my room I'm pretty sure you have a new girlfriend It's not as if I don't like you It just makes me sad whenever I see it Cause I like to be gone most of the time And you like to be home most of the time If I stay in one place I lose my mind I'm a pretty impossible lady to be with Joey never met a bike that he didn't wanna ride And I never met a Tob(e)y that I didn't like Scotty liked all the books that I recommended Even if he didn't I wouldn't be offended I had a dream that I had to drive to Madison To deliver a painting For some silly reason I took a wrong turn and ended up Michigan Paul Baribeau took me to the giant tire swing Gave me a push and he started singing I sang along while I was swinging The sound of our voices made us forget everything That had ever hurt our feelings Joey never met a bike that he didn't wanna ride And I never met a Tob(e)y that I didn't like Scotty liked all the books that I recommended Even if he didn't I wouldn't be offended Now I'm home for less than 24 hours That's hardly time to take a shower, Hug my family, and take your picture off the wall, Check my email, write a song, and make a few phone calls Before it's time to leave again I've got one hand on the steering wheel one waving out the window If I'm a spinster for the rest of my life My yarns will keep me warm on cold and lonely nights Joey never met a bike that he didn't wanna ride And I never met a Tob(e)y that I didn't like Scotty liked all the books that I recommended Even if he didn't I wouldn't be offended
2.
My Mom 03:21
My Mom Have you ever had a dream that your favorite baby's drowning And you grab him by his sweater sleeve, pull him up on to the ground And you can hear the water slosh around inside his tiny gut Push his belly up and down but he can't cough the water up Suddenly a flood comes out his mouth till there is nothing left Inside of him, he's empty now, there isn't even one small breath And he goes limp in your arms All the people's mouths are moving, all you hear are car alarms And you wake up and start to cry I will lose my shit if even one more person I know dies So please don't die My mom's sick she's in a hospital bed I've got a word for all you ghosts in her head And all you skeletons in her closet Leave her alone, leave her alone, leave her alone, please Because my mom needs you gone, my mom needs you gone As long as she is haunted she'll never get strong My mom needs you gone You traded all your paperclips for a soap dish, that way Your best friend's rubber ducky wouldn't slip and slide away But he traded his rubber duck for a cigar box to place Your paperclips in, Mr. Hooper came to say Oh my dear friends Bert and Ernie Here's a little something for each of you from me Here are your paperclips and here's your rubber ducky How could I ignore such selfless generosity? The human body's made up of good and bad bacteria But the antibiotics and the antibacterials are killing all the good ones And the bad ones just get stronger and become super infections It's harder to destroy them and it's harder to detect them And there's something in her blood, and there's something in her leg, And there's something in her brain My mom's sick she's in a hospital bed I've got a word for all you ghosts in her head And all you skeletons in her closet Leave her alone, leave her alone, leave her alone, leave her alone Leave her alone, leave her alone, leave her alone please Because my mom needs you gone, my mom needs you gone As long as she is haunted she'll never get strong My mom needs you gone My mom needs you gone My mom needs you gone My mom needs you gone My mom needs you gone
3.
Loose Lips 02:27
Loose Lips Loose lips might sink ships but loose gooses take trips To San Francisco, double dutch disco, Tech TV hottie, do it for Scotty Do it for the living and do it for the dead Do it for the monsters under your bed Do it for the teenagers and do it for your mom Broken hearts hurt but they make us strong and We won't stop until somebody calls the cops And even then we'll start again and just pretend that Nothing ever happened We won't stop until somebody calls the cops And even then we'll start again and just pretend that Nothing ever happened We're just dancing, we're just hugging, Singing, screaming, kissing, tugging On the sleeve of how it used to be How's it gonna be? I'll drop kick Russell Stover, move into the starting over house And know Matt Rouse and Jest are watching me achieve my dreams And we'll pray, all damn day, every day, That all this shit our president has got us in will go away While we strive to figure out a way we can survive These trying times without losing our minds So if you wanna burn yourself remember that I LOVE YOU And if you wanna cut yourself remember that I LOVE YOU And if you wanna kill yourself remember that I LOVE YOU Call me up before you're dead, we can make some plans instead Send me an IM, I'll be your friend Shysters live from scheme to scheme but my 4th quarter pipe dreams Are seeming more and more worth fighting for So I'll curate some situations, make my job a big vacation And I'll say FUCK BUSH AND FUCK THIS WAR My war paint is sharpie ink and I'll show you how much my shit stinks And ask you what you think because your thoughts and words are powerful They think we're disposable, well both my thumbs opposable Spelled out on a double word and triple letter score And we won't stop until somebody calls the cops And even then we'll start again and just pretend that Nothing ever happened We won't stop until somebody calls the cops And even then we'll start again and just pretend that Nothing ever happened We won't stop until somebody calls the cops And even then we'll start again and just pretend that Nothing ever happened We won't stop until somebody calls the cops And even then we'll start again and just pretend that Nothing ever happened We're just dancing, we're just hugging, Singing, screaming, kissing, tugging On the sleeve of how it used to be
4.
Caving In 03:04
Caving In Have you ever been swindled by a swindler who lies? Cause he wants to see you smile, have a good time, be inspired And he doesn't want for you to cry or know he cries inside So he hides behind this great triumphant rock and roll disguise You want things to be real but you really can't deny You feel excited and on fire, is it wrong to lie and say he's fine? When the reason he's not fine is the pressure of the power changing lives In just one hour all these people will be better people Take this job and shove it, adios, I'm a ghost I am leaving for the coast and I'll never work for anyone again I'm not your savior or your heavenly host I'm just a piece of zweiback toast getting soggy in a baby's aching mouth I'm going south, like the geese I just goosed you And so maybe I seem loose to you but I don't even wanna spoon I did once, but I don't now Now that I see how you do things, the way you play and sing's amazing But the way you play the game is crazy, you don't have to say you're sorry You don't owe me anything, don't owe me anything Sometimes it seems like I've got all the answers But the answers aren't the same when the questions keep on changing Like how will I react when I see my mother crying Every single day cause she is afraid of dying? And how will I contain my anger when Delilah Plays Unchained Melody instead of Lost in Your Eyes? And where will I go where I can feel safe When my family sells this place and we all split up and move away? I'm trying to be brave cause when I'm brave other people feel brave But I feel like my heart is caving in I'm trying to be brave cause when I'm brave other people feel brave But I feel like my heart is caving in I'm trying to be brave cause when I'm brave other people feel brave But I feel like my heart is caving in
5.
Better Weather There are my specs, the ones I've been looking for I threw them out my window ten years ago and now they're on my doorstep So you put one and one together and there will be better weather And you know that it's forever now that he has custody With his son upon his shoulders they are a sight to behold Cause the dad is twenty eight even though he looks seventeen So you'll never guess the woes that they have known cause they don't show And in a couple years they've grown into a perfect family I'm so proud my brother did so good with his kid I just wished that I could Live with the fishes I love in their anemone But I'm a turtle, it won't work, I've got to stay out in the current With my house upon my back so I can hide inside of me All together in the tank you always dreamed about escaping When you finally make a break for it you deserve to be free To be free To be free To be free There are my spectacles, the ones I've been looking for I threw them out my window ten years ago and now they're on my doorstep That's how it happened, the confusion at the store The shark never knew his father and the baby never knew his Motherboard
6.
Underground 03:52
Underground My head is pounding, I can't stop the pounding I think it is going to explode And kill everybody who's in close proximity To this place I call my home And they'll make a moving made-for-teehee movie For Lifetime all about my life That ends with an epitaph, one that will make you laugh That says "Great mom. Okay wife" And it'll be funny to the people who know me Who know if my body's not burned My soul will spend an eternity in misery Tethered and bound to this earth So I'm not a dick or a stick in the mud Always ruining things for my friends I mustn't forget when I see the sun set That tomorrow it will rise again So I tattoo instructions on my ass That say "Don't ever put this body in a casket. Burn it and put the ashes in a basket. And throw them in the Puget Sound" I don't ever want to be underground Oh no, oh no I'm wearing size thirteen basketball shoes And lavender fishnets, I'm freaked out and fucked up And I'm standing alone in an alley with you Wanting to show you a cure for your hiccups But instead I close my eyes The needles are numbered so I'm writing you letters And I cannot disguise The fact that I'm nervous when we are together And so I fantasize That the nights'll get shorter and the days will get better I feel a kick inside and sigh "If this is a girl, I'm naming her Heather. She'll look just like you, but her hair will be feathered. She'll say how you died before you ever met her." Her hair will be feathered My head is pounding, I can't stop the pounding I think it is going to explode There are plus and minuses to sinusitis Like sometimes I get to go home But mostly it hurts so bad I think I'm dying I just blew my nose and now I feel like crying And the dreams I have are all of my past lives And the seizures would paralyze me in the night And I'd wake up clutching my teddy bear tight And drooling and trying to turn on the light All I can do is hold fast and sit tight But what if they forget? cause you know they just might So I tattoo instructions on my ass That say "Don't ever put this body in a casket. Burn it and put the ashes in a basket. And throw them in the Puget Sound." I don't ever want to be underground Oh no, oh no
7.
I Like Giants When I go for a drive I like to pull off to the side Of the road, turn out the lights, get out, and look up at the sky And I do this to remind me that I'm really really tiny In the grand scheme of things and sometimes this terrifies me But it's only really scary 'cause it makes me feel serene In a way I never thought I'd be because I've never been So grounded and so humbled and so one with everything I am grounded, I am humbled, I am one with everything Rock and roll is fun but if you ever hear someone Say you are huge look at the moon, look at the stars, look at the sun Look at the ocean and the desert and the mountains and the sky Say I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye When I saw Geneviève I really liked it when she said What she said about the giant and the lemmings on the cliff She said "i like giants- especially girl giants. 'cause all girls feel Too big sometimes, regardless of their size" When I go for a drive I like to pull off to the side Of the road and run and jump into the ocean in my clothes And I'm smaller than a poppyseed inside a great big bowl And the ocean is a giant that can swallow me whole So I swim for all salvation and I swim to save my soul But my soul is just a whisper trapped inside a tornado So I flip to my back and I float and I sing I am grounded, I am humbled, I am one with everything I am grounded, I am humbled, I am one with everything So I talked to Geneviève and almost cried when she said That the giant on the cliff wished that she was dead And the lemmings on the cliff wished that they were dead So the giant told the lemmings why they ought to live instead And when she thought up all those reasons that they ought to live instead It made her reconsider all the sad thoughts in her head So thank you Geneviève, 'cause you take what is in your head And you make things that are so beautiful and share them with your friends We all become important when we realize our goal Should be to figure out our role within the context of the whole And yeah, rock and roll is fun but if you ever hear someone Say you are huge look at the moon, look at the stars, look at the sun Look at the ocean and the desert and the mountains and the sky And say I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye And I don't wanna make her cry 'cause I like giants.
8.
The Competition I never wanted to be better than my friends I just wanted to prove wrong the people in my head The ones who told me I'd be better off dead The ones who told me that I would never win When I delivered newspapers they said I was too slow When I was a barista they said I made lousy foam When I worked in retail they said I was a slob Much too dumb for school and much too lazy for a job So I rode my bike like lightning And I made cappucinos that would make the angels sing Took two showers a day and I dressed up like a princess Shook my fist in my own face and said "i'll show you who's the best" I wrote the kinds of papers teachers hang up on their walls I was employee of the month at seven different shopping malls And one time, playing football, I pulled a tendon in my leg To prove that I was tough I hopped on one foot And finished up the game I thought if I succeeded I'd be happy and they'd go away But first thing every morning I'd still wake up and I'd hear them say "you're fat, ugly, and stupid, you should really be ashamed No one will ever like you, you're no good at anything" And sometimes I'd rise to the challenge But other times I'd feel so bad that I could not get out of bed And on the days I stayed in bed I sang and sang and sang About how crappy I felt, not realizing how many other people would relate Now people send me emails that say thanks For saying the things they didn't know how to say And the people in my head still visit me sometimes And they bring all of their friends, but I don't mind I play my guitar like lightning When I sing I like it when you sing too, loud and clear Different voices, different tones, all saying "yeah, we're not alone" I got good at feeling bad and that's why I'm still here I got good at feeling bad and that's why I'm still here I got good at feeling bad and that's why I'm still here
9.
France 03:34
I said "David, put that seven inch on The one about loving bad boys and then dance with me" He said "silly ass bitch, that's my favorite song" He put it on and we danced round like monkeys Then when we couldn't move, we played Monkey Ball 2 It's a good thing to do when you're done touring There's Mimi and Gon-Gon and platforms to land on In the next room we heard Andre snoring So we took the dog for a walk in the park And we walked and we didn't say anything At least that I can repeat, cause all we did was talk shit About people that we think are boring The phone rang, it was Neman, he was at the Pop In He said "hurry up! hang out with me!" And we did cause I like the Pop In open mic And Neman, and David is the MC And we sang songs all night long And we danced We sang songs all night long And we danced, in France, I like France Lolita and Clementine Don't go to shows but they're hip to the scene Jailbait, late for school again Labolduc and El Boy Die Duking it out for a piece of the pie And I finally got mine The lemon meringue kind Me and my friend Lisa B Girls being girls at the Monoprix Again, shopping trip in Bourg-la-Reine Shopping trip in Boug-la-Reine Well they were lost in the mist and they didn't have time To see what I could see and it hurt me And they were driving around with the stereo on And there was nothing on the air to relieve me And you were sitting in the back, and in the mirror I could see That you were pointing you guns towards me And I knew from the start that your heart was mine, But you were too sick a person to marry me Sheer wonder, baby Sheer wonder, baby Sheer wonder, baby Sheer wonder, baby Sheer wonder, baby Sheer wonder, baby Sheer wonder, baby Sheer wonder, baby
10.
I Miss You 00:37
I Miss You I was always strong as long as we were a team I crawled into somebody's heart who meant the world to me Love made me strong enough to be alone, it set me free But with my friends friends to the end is where I want to be With my friends friends to the end is where I want to be I don't need to, but I want to sing with you, cause I miss you I don't need to, but I want to sing with you, cause I miss you
11.
12/26 03:45
One of her babies is rotting in the sun and the other one was found drowned in the ocean Her mom and dad are in their van crushed and bloated and her husband was thrown from his fishing boat So please give me a break from all your complaining about who was mean to you and how your stepdad is a pain - I care, I swear, but I just can't take it, not today All I can think about are tsunamis and earthquakes Everything she's ever known is gone, gone, gone, Everyone she's ever loved is gone, gone, gone, The only reason she's alive is she grabbed a palm frond, and held on And held on You can call me crazy but it seems to me we could have sent more than we spend in one day killing Iraqis To help the hundreds of thousands who are injured and diseased and hungry and homeless and without families I'm appalled by our government's initial reaction and the fact that they asked for a verbal retraction From the folks who called them stingy they're just covering their assets Well they thank their greedy god for wiping out the lower class Everything she's ever known is gone, gone, gone Everyone she's ever loved is gone, gone, gone The only reason she's alive is she grabbed a palm frond, and held on And held on One of her babies is rotting in the sun and the other one was found drowned in the ocean Her mom and dad are in their van they are crushed and bloated and her husband was thrown from his fishing boat We'd have 12/26 tattoed across our foreheads if something this atrocious happened on our coast instead Well a tragedy's a tragedy no matter where it happens close your eyes really tight now and try to imagine That everything you've ever known is gone and everything you've ever loved is gone And the only reason you're alive is you were lucky and you were strong enough to hold on While you watched your family die While you watched your family die While you watched your family die While you watched your family die Everything she's ever known is gone, gone, gone Everyone she's ever loved is gone, gone, gone The only reason she's alive is she grabbed a palm frond, and held on And held on
12.
My Rollercoaster You were on my mind at least nine tenths of yesterday It seemed as if perhaps I'd gone insane What is it about you that has commandeered my brain? Maybe it's your awesome songs or maybe it's the way When I look at your face I can tell that you're not going to be stopping soon or even slowing down And if we keep up this pace pretty soon we'll know the name of every kid and every grown up booking house shows in their town And if home is really where the heart is Then we're the smartest kids I know Because wherever we are in this great big world We'll never be more than a few hours from home... And that's important because I need to travel I've had this itchin in my shoes since I was just a little kid And before I had a minivan I road the Greyhound Bus My mom would say "I hope some day you get paid for being Kimya Dawson" And now I do and it's not much But it's enough I've got my Scrabble game, food on my plate, good friends and family And now there's you understanding why I do the things I do Knowing that you do them too makes me really happy I like going for hikes and riding bikes Playing video games in the middle of the night And I'll stay up late and I won't even care That we're getting up early to go to the state fair I'm gonna ride the biggest ride it'll be out of sight Then I'll share an elephant ear with you if you'd like Because we are alive so we've gotta live life To the fullest you spin the bottle and I'll dim the lights Four five six seven minutes in the closet You were on my mind at least nine tenths of yesterday It seemed as if perhaps I'd gone insane What is it about you that has commandeered my brain? Maybe it's your awesome songs or maybe it's the way You go straight to the top you're not scared of getting squashed You know just when to jump off You're so brave And then you run to the right it seems there's no hope in sight Then you drop down to the tube that takes you right to level eight Life is a highway and I'm gonna ride it Every day's a winding road yeah My rollercoaster's got the biggest ups and downs As long as it keeps goin' round it's unbelievable Life is a highway and I'm gonna ride it Every day's a winding road yeah My rollercoaster's got the biggest ups and downs As long as it keeps goin' round it's unbelievable

about

For legal reason I had to re-record My Rollercoaster. Before the album came out I specifically asked K Records about that song and they told me everything was fine, but then I was sued for one part of the medley in the original version. Part of the settlement was that the album had to go out of print until the song was pulled or re-done. This was happening at the same time that I began to realize K Records was not paying me and lying to me about what they owed me. So instead of re-recording the song and letting K reissue the album, and continue keeping the money from it, I let the album/song stay out of print until I was completely free from K and I could release it myself. So here are all 12 songs together - after all these years.

Sorry about that. The music biz is a mess.

I love you.

credits

released May 9, 2006

Kimya Dawson – guitar, vocals, whistling, flute, maracas, castanets, frog, organ
Paul Baribeau – vocals, keyboard
Craig Peters - keyboard, vocals
Matt Tobey – bells, vocals, ukulele
Scott Yoder - electric guitar, vocals
Jake Kelly - vocals, violin, mandolin
Donna Dear - vocals, watermelon
Saint Abbey - vocals
Erin Tobey - bells, vocals
M.J. Geier - vocals

Tracks 1-6, 9 Recorded by Jake Kelly
Tracks 7-10 Recorded by Matt Roth
Track 12 Recorded by Aesop Rock

Cover Art by Jeffrey Lewis

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